You Don't Always Have to Strain To Hear Him

Over the last two weeks, God has moved and spoken in huge ways in my life. In doing so, a long dry spell of communication was broken. or was it? Could it be that I was trying too hard to figure out where to go next, what to do next, or where God was leading me rather than listening to Him tell me it would be OK?
I mean, this whole time when I felt like God wasn't near me, wasn't listening, wasn't working on my behalf, He was busy laying out the next steps for me. I mean, a man coming up to Sarah and I with the offer to pay for my continuing education isn't an overnight event! And neither is the family whose home we lease getting the job offer of their life and needing to come home. So many pieces had to fall into place for that to happen, and for Sarah and I to hear the answer of our prayer about that house. So, then we get the answer that is not the house for us long term and we have to find a new place to live in 7 weeks. My bro in law talks to a friend of his who puts us in touch with a banker who is willing to take on the risk of giving us another mortgage at a great rate. That took a little background work, huh? And then to find two houses in our price range that we love and both owned by God loving families that need to move out at the same deadline we need to move in. Coincidence? Not at all!
Why don't we give God the credit He so richly deserves?! I feel so silly for moping around like my world was falling apart when He was laying foundations for me and my family like this. So now here we are. Moving this month to a new home that is less per month than the rent we were paying. Registering for school with a check in my pocket for tuition. And feeling like there is no weight on my shoulders at all! God is so good!
Father, please forgive me for my doubts. For not seeing You at work in my life. For the thought that You might not know what was best for me and my girls. For trying to "fix things" without your help. I have so much to learn about Your ways. Thank you for your patience with me. and thank You for what You are doing in Sarah right now. i know she loves how much closer you guys have gotten. Keep using us.