You ever get the feeling you are on the beginning of something huge, bigger than even you thought of? What do you do with that? Where do you begin?
That's where I am. Several people that I care about have made bad decisions recently. It has opened my eyes to what might lie ahead for me and my family. i think this new ministry position is bigger than I first thought. It seemed like everyone here had it together. but now I see so many souls in danger. Instead of growing, God is leading us to bandage our walking wounded. My whole outlook has changed now. For the first time in my ministry, I feel like I am locked in a death match with the enemy for the kids in my group. I have always known that we did battle for their souls. but it seems as if God is screaming at me that it is more intense here, more important, and deeper than anywhere I have been before. That's not a bad thing...I love challenges. It's weird though. I have loved the kids in my group at other churches. But here it is deeper. Maybe it's because I feel more like a father in my personal life that it is easier to relate.
there are bright spots. But, they seem too far hidden and far in between. the culture here has a hold on these kids. There is only one way and that is ole red's way. Everyone drinks in the fields after ball games or at house parties. Everyone has sex with their love interests. The norm here is to be at church on Sunday after you have sinned in excess the night before. Adults seem to shrug it off with the "kids will be kids" attitude. I fear that someone is really going to get hurt by this before they listen. Or worse.
God what cna I do to help them hear You? What can I show them to help them see You? Be my guide, give me Your words, give me Your eyes, show me what I can do to bring these kids to You before it is too late. please.
