You ever get the feeling you are on the beginning of something huge, bigger than even you thought of? What do you do with that? Where do you begin?
That's where I am. Several people that I care about have made bad decisions recently. It has opened my eyes to what might lie ahead for me and my family. i think this new ministry position is bigger than I first thought. It seemed like everyone here had it together. but now I see so many souls in danger. Instead of growing, God is leading us to bandage our walking wounded. My whole outlook has changed now. For the first time in my ministry, I feel like I am locked in a death match with the enemy for the kids in my group. I have always known that we did battle for their souls. but it seems as if God is screaming at me that it is more intense here, more important, and deeper than anywhere I have been before. That's not a bad thing...I love challenges. It's weird though. I have loved the kids in my group at other churches. But here it is deeper. Maybe it's because I feel more like a father in my personal life that it is easier to relate.
there are bright spots. But, they seem too far hidden and far in between. the culture here has a hold on these kids. There is only one way and that is ole red's way. Everyone drinks in the fields after ball games or at house parties. Everyone has sex with their love interests. The norm here is to be at church on Sunday after you have sinned in excess the night before. Adults seem to shrug it off with the "kids will be kids" attitude. I fear that someone is really going to get hurt by this before they listen. Or worse.
God what cna I do to help them hear You? What can I show them to help them see You? Be my guide, give me Your words, give me Your eyes, show me what I can do to bring these kids to You before it is too late. please.
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There is always hope! We could all just say "well, kids will be kids," but that is crap and a complete cop-out. Recently God has been laying it on my heart to closely examen the world around me. Are "good" people in fact good if they constantly and consciously make bad decisions. Will these "good" people have grace in Heaven after they have constantly spat in the face of Jesus? Don't get me wrong, I sin just as much as the next person, but I have been really wondering that lately. I think it has to do with being in college now. I am out of the high school world where only the "bad" kids drank and had sex. Now, these activities seem to be commonplace to my fellow students. Thankfully, God has given me the rationality to avoid sin in these areas, but just how can some of these people not care if it is right or wrong? Some of these people KNOW the Way, and are walking in the ditch. I think all of this has been building and building inside my brain: I haven't wanted to seem judgemental. The truth is, I actively have to tell myself to not judge others. It is a struggle for me. However, I think I have crossed the fine line to something deeper than judgement of people. I am questioning foundational concepts of society/humanity. What makes people "good" or "bad"?
I guesss I have just become fed up with being immersed in the college world. What cynicism! Could I go back to being 4 years old, the time before I ever started my "education of the world"? Ugh.
Needless to say, you are going to be God's soldier. You will win the battle in your present group and live to talk about it. You have God on your side! I did ramble quite a bit before I got to what I wanted to say in regards to your story, but I doubt you will mind. You are generally a chill person. So, just remember that there is always Hope, and THANK GOD for that, because with sinners like me on the loose, the world is in danger! Goodnight and good luck!
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